Nicole Kidman is opening up in July's Vogue about expecting her first child with husband Keith Urban.
After suffering two miscarriages with ex Tom Cruise, the 40-year-old actress (who is due in July) said she cried when she saw the ultrasound.
"I didn't think I'd get to experience that in my lifetime," she admits. "I like the unpredictable nature of it. To feel life growing with you is something very, very special, and I'm going to embrace that completely."
Kidman — who has two adopted children, Connor, 13, and Isabella, 15, from her marriage to Cruise — also sounded off on:
Being happy and pregnant:
"My sister has had four kids, and she says that when you're pregnant you draw people to you who are genuinely happy. She's right. It taps into that thing in human nature that is universal and collective and beautiful."
Life in Tennessee:
"I've been in Tennessee, just sitting. We have a farm there, and I have an organic vegetable garden. This is a path I'd not taken before. My mum's always gardened. My sister gardens. And I've now conformed to the Kidman women's hobby of gardening. And it is just a hobby. I'm not feeding the troops. There's a softness to the Tennessee landscape that I just love. It's very beautiful out there. We have deer and wild turkeys."
Keith Urban's battle with addiction:
"I'm so committed to this relationship, and so is he. I don't have addiction problems, but love is a very powerful force in my life. It's my fatal flaw and my virtue."
New appreciation of life:
"You can fight life. You can wriggle and squirm and say, 'This isn't right.' But I'm glad I've learned to let things flow. I'm now so much more capable of receiving love and giving it in a far different way. So to be given the blessing of a child at this stage of my life, you just say, 'Wow, this was meant to be.' "